Finding your life's story

"What's my story? Every page is being written pending on what I decide, what I choose ultimately. Will my story be read for years to come? Will it be inriguing? I want them to be colorful stories...a compliation of mess ups, mistakes, problems with happiness, love, laughter and more to end it all. Life is scribbling down all impressions made and molding to form what will be known as my story. "Wht's the story?" Some will say and hopefully it's response will be- "A Life Lived."' That was written by one of my best friends Kate Thurston. I love her writing. This was just apart of her journal and she shared it with me one day. I think it is beautiful. Sometimes I stop and think about the story I'm writing. It's an interesting exercise and one that I think is good for all to do from time to time. I learn new things about myself, some positive, some shocking, some funny and some that causes me to want to change. I love how Kate talks about what kind of story she wants her life to tell. She's so honest in her answer. I find that honesty refreshing and liberating. There are times when we will fall down, make dumb mistakes, be humiliated, fail, just to feel regret, sorrow, disappointment, fear, and guilt. But through those choices we can learn, grow and become better than we were before. It's only there where the beauty comes. That change and transformation into someone better. This change can be painful, hard and exhausting yet the rewards are endless. Sometimes this growth can only come through taking risks. There's a video about this that I thought was pretty neat. I wonder if those people didn't have the experiences they did, would they have been as successful as they were? I am a believer that so called negative experiences help us and can be for our good if we choose them to be. It's then that I feel and see beauty and know that God's hand is in my life.

Decisions

Why is it that I have the hardest time making decisions? I feel like I see things on so many angles and it's hard for me to pick which one I want to believe or which one I should believe...you know which one is right. Ultimately I want my actions to be a benefit for all parties involved. Did I say ultimately? Yeah I wanted to reemphasize that word because at first I may be blinded by my own selfishness and do what I want instead of what is right or best for someone else. I am grateful that we have a whole life to become better and to grow. I am impatient sometimes and wish I was perfect at it right now. I will just keep on trying even when that is hard to do sometimes. I know that will bring the best results. I will never give up.